when worlds collide..

I'm UPSET.

Bad enough to have 2 musician-turned-director exes. It gets worse when one of them starts directing the video of the other's former "band."

What the heck?!?

I love my life. And I ESPECIALLY love that (let's just call him) Puffy is no longer a part of it. Yeah, I buy into that "I'll always love him" crap but really.. I don't know. He's really gotten on my nerves lately. He's still the same. It's me. I know I'm different and I can't tolerate the same things anymore. Which is why him directing my friends' video bothers me like anything.

I want to say BACK OFF. You don't see me doing stuff with YOUR friends so lay off MINE. Not like I can deprive my friends of the chance to have their video directed by him. He IS talented, after all. I just hate the fact that I have to deal with him more than I already do. I mean, I see him all the time already and it's not doing anything for my sanity. I'm thisclose to just quitting though.

Just in case you're thinking "You're not over it, honey" I'm telling you this right now. I REALLY AM. Which is why he annoys me, I suppose. Because he's probably thinking I'm not and I come across friends from my past who think I'm not either. But, like I said, I'm really not the same person anymore so whatever I used to find endearing is starting to feel like a "chocolate headache." You know, the kind when you have lots of chocolate (which you really love) but then you have TOO MUCH and it just kills you? Yeah. That's how I feel about Puffy.

I know I'll get over it soon, and that in the future things will probably be okay between us but right now I've had it UP TO HERE and I just really need a change in environment. Maybe if I didn't see him for a while it would make a difference.

Oh, well. Guess we'll just have to see.